In Limbo

Ivy Hollys

They say life is a puzzle; I’m beginning to understand better.

Confusion. Who is he, really? Because at this point, I think I could beat him at his own game.

I ask myself, what does the Bible say again?

"You can make many plans, but the Lord's purpose will prevail."

But what if the purpose requires cuts deeper than my human mind can bear?

Oh, I hear you;

He won't give me more than I can handle, right?

So what if this purpose leads me to a path of stripping away everything I've known? What if it leads me somewhere completely unfamiliar?

Like Abraham, would I just go?

Oh I've heard it and I've practiced it but it looks like there are levels to this faith walk…Won’t you agree?

Because why is this different…

I know I need to trust that God's plans are good. I know He doesn't make mistakes. But then again, what if I am just baptizing my own desires in spiritual lingua?

Afterall, the heart of man is indeed wicked and cannot be understood, right?

Or will you say I just need to commit the plans into his hands and go ahead?

Confusion lingers.

Still, I remind myself: God is good, always good. And maybe, just maybe, if I let things be, it will all work out in the end.

For now, though, I'm in limbo. And what a strange, uneasy place that is.

Pray for me.